This is definitely not something my husband wants to hear. Actually upon my mentioning it, I received a hearty “No” followed by a list of why we are not ready for it. But I just can’t seem to help myself.
I have BABY FEVER.
There I said it. Where we live, it seems like everyone we see when we go out is either pregnant or just had a baby. Not only that, but people I know from high school, along with a large majority from college are all posting pictures of their new little ones or their cute “we’re expecting!” pictures. I know, I know, we have a 9 month old and my body needs a bit more time to recuperate before having another baby. But I can honestly say that I enjoyed being pregnant. I loved feeling those movements in my stomach, I liked being able to eat a bit more and not feel guilty, and the feeling of doing something that only we, woman, can do.
Before Bee, I had never experienced baby fever. Now, I can’t help but get excited at the thought of having more babies. I want as big a family as my hubby will agree to… which is currently 3 kids. 😉
I guess technically we were ahead of the game. We got married before most of our friends, and followed the normal progression of having kids earlier than them too. But now, they are all getting married and pregnant, and seeing it makes me want more of my own.
Don’t get me wrong. I am glad to get a break from being up all night and 3-4 feedings a night. Plus, it’s really nice that Bee can play on the floor all by herself and feed herself some. But what mom doesn’t enjoy those times too. I can’t be for sure that I did while they were occurring, but now looking back I know that they were a part of it I never would give up.
I’ve been pushing these feelings back. I know that, for now, we’re not going to have another baby. We’re not waiting too long, but my hubby is not ready for the emotions that come with another baby. My emotions that is. If you have had a baby, you know those post baby emotions that you can’t control. Yea, he was glad to see those disappear. 🙂
I decided talking about this here might help me get past it, although now I fear it may make it worse. But either way, for now, I will try to ignore those feelings and get in shape so I can be a great mom for our current little monkey and can be healthy for all the ones to come!
For all you ladies that are currently pregnant, or want to be, know that it is one of the best experiences a woman can have. And maybe it’s the 8 year old in me, but I really like doing something that the boys never can! 🙂